Gil (fenyx) wrote,

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Never enough...

I never seem to have enough fuckin' time. At work, with my friends, to write. I have no clue where it goes. I barely watch TV, for instance the only thing I've watched in the last couple of days is Conan, some basketball, and ER tonight. Monday, I worked late. Tuesday I had to go see the damn lawyer. Yesterday, what the fuck was yesterday? Oh right, heh. Wing Wednesday. Today, I had to take in the TV to the shop. Hopefully that'll get fixed and then I'll be back to the two TV/comp setup with an additional X-Box. Heh. Can't wait to play Halo on two screens head to head. Fuck that split screen shit where the other person can see where you are. Work was insane today, but it has been lately. Fires, kids getting cut, muggings, all in a day's work I guess. Watching Malcolm heh. "I just want you to be happy." Hmm... But I digress.

Where the hell was I? I really shouldn't try writing while watching/listening to the TV. See what I mean, I don't actually watch this stuff, it's like background noise while I write, and while I pass out. I'm still due for a rant, I have some email to answer, and I still haven't made it to Best Buy to get my I-Pod looked at. *sighs*

I saw two insane crashes today. One in the morning that had LSD backed up for two hours, which probably missed me by literally minutes. The other by work, a bus crashed into an SUV, that one wasn't too bad. Fuck, I'm all over the place now.

People overreact at work. In life. They all lie. They're all hypocrites. Remember, everyone and anything can be replaced. You're not special, neither am I. There's someone out there who can do your job better, and probably for less. No one is going to remember you, no one is going to care. They tell you want you want to hear, and, if you're as gullible as I am, you'll believe it.

Good job. Take care. Keep in touch. Everything's going to be alright. Don't worry about it.

I love you. Siempre.

Everything happens for a reason.

I take care of one thing and end up having to deal with another, it just gets to me, I mean what's the point? Why bother if something else is going to take it's place. Arrgh...I'm not going to start bitching.

There's so much shit I need to see. Ray, Finding Neverland, Closer, Blade Trinity, Ocean's Twelve...
Got to pick up Dodgeball, Spider-Man 2...

I should go to sleep, never enough time...going to be another long one tomorrow.



(Untitled Fragment)

Little solace comes
to those who grieve
when thoughts keep drifting
as walls keep shifting
and this great blue world of ours
seems a house of leaves

moments before the wind.


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