Gil (fenyx) wrote,
Gil
fenyx

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Sports Bar

Fucked up - drunk and stoned
Every choice has a no
Speech slurred - I called you again
You’re not even my friend

Are you?


I did it again
Choked up - I gotta go
Every choice has a no
I’m broke - I don’t belong

I don't fuckin' belong anywhere, not good enough ot hang out with certain people, but I'm uncomfortable wiht my peers.  Not that I'm better than anyone, but I'm smarter.  Why am at this station?

They’re raping my favorite song
And every time I wake up I feel sad
I dream about the things I used to have
And how did I get into this? - I’m tied to it

I don't know how I got where I am sometimes.  Like that conversation wiht Kris,  I look around at myself, fucked up with my co-workers, pining over some girl that'll never be mine, thinking to m yself how the fuck did I get here?

Teased up - high hair disgust
No sex - a natural distrust

It's sad really, I don't trust anyone.  I was thiking about that today, I do certain people to a point, but so many people have effed me over that it's hard to let them in.  I don't think anyone really trusts me as well, I thought one person did, but even she doesn't.

I don’t care - you can’t get through
I dig hating you
I did it again
Drink it up - pissed off
I’m a hack, you’re a smoker’s cough

fuckin' cough won't go away, I'm sure the bar envirnoment is helping a lot

I’d like to fuck, but you’re too dumb
Gee, it’s great being single and young

Who doesn't like to fuck?  I don't know about the young part anymore though...

And every time I try to talk to you
I know there’s something else you’d rather do

Like play pool or talk to strangers.  That reminds me, I threw my phone into a glass of water so it's basically fucked now, so leave a msg I'll get back to you when I can.

And how did I get into this? - I’m tied to it

No idea.

And every time I wake up bruised
I know that my brain’s not in use
And every time when things are great
I don’t know why I detonate
I’m tied to it

I did it again

And every time I wake up bruised
I know that my brain’s not in use
And every time when things are great
I don’t know why I detonate
I’m tied to it

Best fuckin' song ever, and jeebus is it timely rght now.  I'm so fucked u p right now, I don't know why I do this?  I guess because there's nothing else to do, because life blows and a drink or twenty helps to make it bearable.  I supposedly have plans tomorrow with one of the teachers, but guess what...her phone number is gone along with everyone elses in my fucked up phone.  God I'm an asshole, It's unbelievable, my stupidity, my luck, my temper.  Unreal.

fawk I just dozed off, bad enough it took me  a while to log in. again I slept. foma;;y we  <-wtf?

Now Im coughing, great.  What is going t o become of me?  I might go to Moab for srping break so no suffrajett.  someone convince me of what to do.  Anyway I'm outta here, baybe for  ong., fuckin qwerty again.

'nite

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