Switching gears now...Victor was telling about an Indy comic-con or something like that going on next weekend. It got us talking about comics and ideas, things like that, breaking in as a writer, and of course it lead to me going on about my ideas. I don't talk about them much, for several reasons I guess. Paranoia, fear of rejection, shyness, to name a few, but I do get excited when I do. I tend to ramble on, I mean I've read tons of books on writing, screen writing, playwriting, acting, taken classes, improv, etc. That's what I went to school for, I've acted and helped direct short films, and I've written two full length screenplays and a novel. I just sometimes feel like I'm tooting my own horn, or just talking shit like so many other people. I feel like I'm lying when I call myself a writer. I don't know, I'm conflicted about it all to say the least. That's why I don't bring it up too often. Even as I'm talking about it, I get quiet or just change subjects when people don't react the way I expect them to. Some people get excited and want to talk to you about making/writing something, other people kind of just listen politely, all the while thinking to themselves that I suck. Still others kind of give you that eyes glazed over look, like they have no idea what the hell you're rambling about. Once in a while I feel that some legitimately is interested and likes/understands my ideas. I don't know, I've had bad experiences I guess, and I'm a bit too sensitive, guess I need to develop tougher skin.
On another subject, times are tough, we all know that so I won't harp on about it. I've been reading and I know a few of you are also