Gil (fenyx) wrote,

I suck.

I know, I'm horrible at updating this thing and I know I'm going to regret it. I really enjoy, well, I'm not sure enjoy is the right word, but it's nice to be able to think of a time or place and look back to my entries about it. Crap, I keeping getting distracted, ADD much?

So, Melissa just keeps getting bigger, she's got two more days of school and she's off for the summer and beyond. That'll be good for her, seeing as it looks like the temperatures are slowly creeping up now. Ten weeks until I'm a dad. Crazy. I still can't believe it sometimes. I haven't been able to sleep for the past couple of weeks. It would be easy to think that it's nerves or anxiousness, but I usually get that "butterflies" in your stomach feeling when I'm nervous or scared. If it's really bad, like I use to get when I had to speak in public or something, I feel like I want to throw up. It hasn't been like that, it's more of a "I'm forgetting something" feeling or like pent up energy, I don't know. Maybe it has to do with school, maybe I'm just bored.

Of course I'm excited, anxious, and a bit scared about being a father, but it's not like it's this otherworldly thing. You feed her, love her, wash her, protect her, teach her, and let her grow. It's not rocket science, people have been doing it for thousands and thousands of years. Right?

School's going okay, but I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to finish for another couple of years. Hoops to jump through, bullshit classes to take, what are you gonna do? Maybe the sleep stuff is just that I've been real bad about sleeping on weekends. I usually don't get to bed until after midnight and unfortunately I can't fall asleep before midnight during the week. Okay I'm rambling and boring you all now.

I've also been trying to work on my other blog,, check it out, it's mostly about gaming and other nerd stuff, but I imagine I'll be writing more and more on it after the baby's born. We'll see. I think that's about it, I'll probably make another post, friends only, to get into some other stuff. Anyway, I hope you're all doing well.



(I'm so rusty I don't even know what to use for tags, lol)
Tags: baby, fam, fandads, life, pregnancy

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