Then there are the times I can't be happy for people, I'm a hater I guess. Sometime's wrong with me that I can't think happy thoughts sometimes. It's not even that I active wish people ill, I don't, it's more of a laissez faire attitude, like I just don't give a fuck. Some people would say that's worse. The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.
I had two options tonight, well three I guess, I ended up doing three because I waited too long. Options 1 and 2 were taken away from me.
I know, I'm rambling, sort of. I'm in a strange mood, exhausted, but I can't sleep. Kind of slap happy, but irritated. Irritated.
I think I'm losing it. oni209nadl d
"You're given the form, but you have to write the sonnet yourself. What you say is completely up to you."
- Madeleine L'Engle, A Wrinkle in Time