Gil (fenyx) wrote,

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"there's just some things you don't talk about in public."

cool points!! Name that movie.

Anyway, almost went to bed w/out posting. Work was f'ed up and it kinda scared me today too. We got some bad news and it made me think, think about how I was, or the type of person I was a long time ago. I don't know, I know I'm losing you, but I know what I'm talking about. I also got way too much information from a co-worker today, somethings I just don't want to know. All this before 8am. It was a long day. This weekend should be interesting, friend's are playing two shows tomorrow, at the same spot one early, one late. Hex is making me go to the reunion as is actually sending in the check tomorrow. Anyone want to be my date? I still don't want to go.


I'm tired, it's been another long week, and tomorrow's friday. No one will be at work, kids are off, I'm going to wear sweats tomorrow, fawk it. Supposed to go to HOB saturday for a birthday party but I never RSVP'd because my friends never told me if they were going and I'm not about to go and be a third wheel or all alone talking to people I don't like and pretending to care. Such a sorid state of affairs. I used to be like that. I could be soooo fake, smile nod, pretend I cared about whatever bullshit you were talking about. Real cold, I don't know, sometimes I get skerred I can revert.

Is it ever going to get any easier?

Then sunday's the Super Bowl, I should be excited, but I'm not. Don't even know where I'm going to watch it. Probably at home alone. I don't know. I need to snap out of it, but I don't even know if I want to anymore.

Alright, I'm going to bed now, another friday on the way.


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