Gil (fenyx) wrote,
Gil
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"Take the things you want and leave everything you need but you better take heed you won't get to see me bleed."

T-minus Seven days and eleven hours. Or so. Whatever.

I think, thought, maybe? That after this week, I'd get through some ish and everything would be okay come summer break. Now I'm starting to dread having all that time to myself. Idle hands right? I mean usually I get by because I keep busy, and yes I can get my ass writing or maybe taking pics. Still though, there's going to be a lot of extra hours in my days now, for a month even.

The phone works both ways you know? Why should I beat myself over things, people. *tries to shake it off*
Well work was work, I had to speak to the father of one of the kids involved in the car incident. Basically the Dean decided to let everyone involved come in tomorrow and wednesday to take their finals, but that's it. They're all suspended otherwise through the end of the year. We also got our yearly evaluations. Mine kicked arse as usual but my lowest rating was in attendance! WTF? I'm like the ONLY person who's always there. They're not that important anyway, but some people were pissed off about theirs. <--that doesn't look right. Their's Theirs' whatever.

*still trying*
I guess I like torturing myself. Damn brain! I sound so lame, so cliche. I know, but I'm going to get over it. Maybe you can help. Let's take Friday for example, the people I ran into, I chose to be the bigger person and just pretend nothing happened. Now I'm faced with a similiar situation, except that it's bigger in scope. I'm probably losing you...I just don't want to name names.

Don't you wish you could just cut out those parts of your brain?


I think i need a love to help me rest my mind
I think i need a love to help me test my smile
Everyone is here, everyone is here to watch their hero die
Some of us are scared some of us are just bored with all the lies

She's gonna hold me tight, she's gonna hold me right
She's gonna hold me tight, she's gonna hold me right
She's gonna hold me tight, she's gonna hold me right
She's gonna hold me tight,
cause i want her to

if if if

if i want to
if i had to
I could thrill you with all that I knew
if I want to I could lock the door from inside
I could change the locks in my mind

and I don't want to know, I don't want to know that every time I'll fail
and I don't want to breathe, I don't to breath when all the air is stale

She's gonna hold me tight, she's gonna hold me right (x3)
She's gonna hold me tight
cause I want her to

if I want to
if I had to
I could thrill you with all that I knew
if I want to I could lock the door from inside
I could change the locks in my mind
I could change the locks and then every time you'd come you would have to knock and if you ever got in
I would change the locks again
then before you know
I'd be changing locks on every single door
on every single shore in the world

if if if
if if if
if if if


So I guess my options are to forgive and forget like nothing happened, to try to work things out but give her/him a piece of my mind, or not to try at all. Just say f'em. or 'er. Ahem. I don't know. Alright, enough of the drama. *violently shakes it off*

Not much else going on, I guess that's part of the problem. I won the World Series against the Boston Red Sox, game seven in Fenway, it was pretty schweet. Yes I'm pretty lame. Umm...still working on Friendster ish, I have two friends so far, I'm ever so popular. The real-life Cubs won today, we owned Houston. Handed Clemens his first loss I do believe.

Well, I've wasted enough of your time and mine.

Carpe Noctum,

Gilly Madison

"...what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul."
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