Gil (fenyx) wrote,

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I lost the damn manual.

Why aren't we born with fucking instructions? I mean wouldn't it be easier. Fuck the argument about learning from your mistakes, experience, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, blah, blah, blah.

WARNING - To prevent fire or shock hazard, do not expose the unit to rain or moisture.

First of all, I still feel like crap, I guess I was exhausted last night because I'm coming down with something. It's not all that warm out and I feel like I'm burning up, I'm sore, and generally feel beat up. Physically and emotionally.

1)Getting Started

I just wish I knew what to do in certain situations, you know? I can't help the way I feel, I wish I fucking could but I can't. So what am I supposed to do? I fucking hate feeling like this. I've been good these last few weeks. Haven't I? Unfortunately I can't shake it. I know, I sound like everyone else, sue me.

2)Basic Features

The worst part, I mean what irks me is that I should know better, at least my brain should. But my friggin'...fuck guess I better change the subject. I just wish I could erase my hard drive, forget certain things, or just knew what I was or am supposed to do next. Guess that's the beauty of life huh, not knowing, a surprise around every corner. Pfft.

3)Advanced Features

Oh and "eeecho 42" who the hell are you? Why does it come up not registered or whatever? Do I have a stalker? Lurker? I'm obsessing about it, but not really.


What now? What the hell am I supposed to do next. I don't know what I'm going to be doing tonight, let alone tomorrow and every other day of my life. Fuck. I guess watching Dawson's isn't helping, heh. It's reminding me of a lot of things, people. You guys are probably like wtf, but there a lot of parallels there. Especially with Dawson's whole film school/film making storyline. It would take a long time for me to explain, but there's a lot of shit there. Not to mention the ish that's been going on around me, and I have to go back to work in a couple of weeks and I've pretty much wasted the time I've had off thus far.


I really need to be more productive, eh I'll probably just go watch a movie. Maybe lay down for a while. It just kind of sucks when you can't fall asleep, you're just lying there. Oh wow, it's raining out, yay. Guess that explains why it got dark all of a sudden huh? Anyway, you lie there, your mind going 100 mph, you can't stop, until you get to the point where finally you drift off. Thinking you could care less if you ever drift back.


Who the hell reads the safety notes or for that matter this:

End User License Agreement

1. You read it, I'll write it.
No warranties, restrictions, or limitations. See disclaimer on main page.

Hope I didn't lose all of you there, if I did it was nothing of consequence anyway. Just more of my ranting, and other assorted bullshit.

Carpe Noctum,


PS-strange entry I know, out of nowhere, I'm okay, really. I should listen to Moe. "Yeah, yeah we all got problems."

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