Gil (fenyx) wrote,

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I think it's just a river in Egypt.

I'm surprisingly okay.

Let me start at the beginning. Work kind of blew today I had to put all the crap that was in the hall back into the office and the place is a wreck now. I don't want to be organizing, cleaning and crap. I don't even do that shit at home, let alone work, heh. Did I mention that the school felt like a furnace. Fuck it's storming here, better make this quick. I did manage to jog this morning, so far, so good. After work I also managed to get my ass to Bunny Hutch. I took the kids to the batting cages, it was fun. Stepped into the cages a few times, rocked a few pitches, had a few laughs. Freakin' Juan 1000 is too funny. He talks to random people, and dances, sings, totally insane. Just image a short, chubby, mexican kid doing the cabbage patch. Classic.

After Bunny Hutch some of us wanted ice cream and where better to get it than the Q. We hop into my baby and head over to Howard. Along the way we were following some UPS stickers that were littered down Howard. How that happened, who knows? (heh, heh) We finally arrive to the Q and they're playing their usual techno/dance music, as we walk in Juan starts dancing and going "Q! Q! OOH! OOH! Q! Q! OOH! OOH!" Too funny. We place our orders and as I'm enjoying my Oreo Cheesequake Blizzard, it happens. I think I notice the car first, almost in slow-motion, movie like even. I'm really not trying to make this sound dramatic, but this is the way it felt. I see the car stopped in traffic and I know before I see the driver, it's L.Ru.

I swear it was only a moment, and she didn't see me. The light turned green and off she went. I was stunned. I'm not going to get into the history or details, suffice to say it was a shock to my system. It's fucked up seeing someone for the first time in ages, especially someone you thought was across the country. Someone, who you never really got the opportunity to say goodbye to. Someone you never thought you'd ever have to deal with again.

I've moved on, I've met someone else. Eventhough, as my luck would have it, that doesn't seem to be working out either. I truly am fortune's fool. Now what? Nothing I guess, I'm really surprised, but I think I'm okay. Maybe it's just denial, or it hasn't sunk it, or I really don't care. Maybe I've just found someone that's so much better, that's the real deal. Maybe I've just come to the realization that I can't win. That even if I have or will find the 'one' someday she won't be or isn't available.

Maybe I'm being melodramatic, eh I'm over it.

Cubs won, sweet. Nomar's wearing #5 now, guess he traded with Barrett. It was a good game, I just feel bad for Fassero. Ack, that was D. We still have to figure out what the plan is for tomorrow. I'll call R.dawg in the morning I guess. See if we're still going to the show and to Mullen's. Fawk, Hex's show is also tomorrow night at the Metro. Just my luck as usual, remember how I was doubting the Cubs game on the 13th, like I wasn't feeling it. I totally blanked about the Local H show that same day.'s like there's never anything to do but when there is, it's all on the same day. I believe AVP comes out on that Friday as well, Friday the 13th, swell.

Alright, I guess that's about it, it's been an eventful day to say the least, now it's stormin' like Norman here so I'm going to get going.

Much love,


"Love is a smoke raised with the fume of sighs;
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes;
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears,
What is it else? A madness most discreet,
A choking gall, and a preserving sweet."

-William Shakespeare

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